i smell LOVE and HAPPINESS.
>> Tuesday, January 24, 2012
from my redbook, written January 19, 2012. - 11:46PM
Today,
nothing is perfect. My life is still in its kinda-“dysfunctional” form. To be
honest, my sky-scraping hopes are starting to wane, and i can’t help but feel
that i am the only one who is believing, and i feel tired. Actually, if i’m not
on a rag, maybe by dawn, my feet will be making love with the sand and
saltwater (these skinny feet are so much in an itch to bond with their
bestfriends). But i guess, i am happier. Because, finally, my languor self was punched
by Coelho when he wrote, People are
capable, at any time in their lives, of doing what they dream of.
And
he was just so dead right!
Though,
i still have questions, tons of nonsense of them, yes. but, i am thankful.
i
am thankful that for the past three years i have learned to accept how dysfunctional
life is. And i was able to deal with it. And my faith was strengthened and deepened.
I
am thankful for the day-by-day people that i meet, for the learning, for the
inspiration, for the strength that they supply me to keep on holding on and for
the people i decided to keep who remained true and wonderful and with respect,
not just for me but for the people i love.
I
am thankful that i have never hooked up with the boy who will carry my dreams
away from me. because when that happens, we’ll surely end up both wounded and broken.
I
am thankful to realize that i do not need to fly to Europe, or to India or to
Batanes island just to find myself, because it has been here all along. (but
one of these days, i’ll still go there to fall in love with their culture or with what ever they have there, and
let me add... Brazil, Marinduque, Vigan and Brazil again!)
My
dreams are waiting. And if i wait for my brain cells to start functioning right,
they might get tired standing. What i can do now is follow Dr. Sara Jordan’s advice,
Everyday, give yourself a good mental
shampoo!
So,
how was this day?
Let
me say: Today, i am still imperfect, with lots of flaws and everything that
will prove that i am just another human. But today is the perfect day to thank GOD
for this wonderful day and for the best days that are yet to come.
P.S.
and today, i had fun with my girlfriends and siblings and I’m gonna blog about
my project happiness once i get the chance!
